Nov 29, 2007

Choo Choo

Before we left to come home for Thanksgiving, we drove about 30 min. out of the way and took Cort on a train ride. It's a real train that goes 5 miles down the track and back. Cort loved it. I had never been on a real train either so it was a fun experience. Santa came on the train to visit the kids. Cort didn't really appreciate that part.


checking out the train


Riding with Grammie


With Mommy


With Daddy and Grandmommy


All Aboard!!


Grandmommy with both her Grandson's


Thanksgiving

We went home for Thanksgiving. We were able to see our parents and grandparents. Cort always enjoys his time with them. My sister was also able to come down with her family last minute so that was really nice too.

Cort eating Paw-Paw's birthday Cake - he totally thought it was for him.


A little rest after all that Turkey


Roller Buddies


"tall Tow" - Tall Tower


Reading books with Granddaddy


Cort and Nicolas on a wagon ride


Cort running through the pine straw path that Daddy built - this is one of his favorite things to do - we do it at home with leaves and Cort pushes his big truck or rides his bike around the path.
Went with a friend to the outlets to get out of the house for the day. We found a few great deals - some adorable Christmas pjs and the boys had a great time.





Grandparents


Right after Halloween we went home and drove to Aiken for the day to take Cort to my grandparents house. I have such fond memories of growing up and playing at their house and it was lots of fun to have Chris and Cort their too. Cort loved all the land and woods around their house.




Daddy showing Cort a Cactus






Cort wanted to walk all the way down their long dirt road - they went about half way and Daddy made him turn around.

Nov 19, 2007

Halloween

I'm long overdue in getting these halloween related pics up of Cort. I have a lot more catching up to do. I'll hopefully get to it soon.

Pumpkin Patch
After many attempts that were put off by rain or schedule issues we finally made it to the pumpkin patch the Saturday before Halloween. Cort loved running around in the pumpkin field and really enjoyed feeding the goats. Getting a great picture was difficult as Cort was never still!! He just kept trying to pick up all of the pumpkins!!














Pumpkin Carving

Cort enjoyed pumpkin carving this year. He didn't really like it so much last year. He still wasn't that sure about getting too messy....




My favorite part about doing it with him was his sound effects. He would mimic the sound of Chris scraping out the pumpkin goo and mimic the sound of the squishy goo!!


Trunk or Treat
We had our annual trunk or treat at our church. Cort discovered candy and there was no turning back. He really enjoyed playing all of the games.







Halloween

We only intended to go to a few houses but Cort loved trick or treating so we ended up going all over the neighborhood. Our neighborhood apparently gets really into Halloween - one house even does a hotdog buffet. He had a blast.


Cort was a train engineer for Halloween. He didn't care about his costume but he loved his prop!!! Chris and I had a lot of fun making his train and Cort Loved riding in it.




We appreciate all of your continued prayers for Cohen and our family. I promise I will share more later. For now, we are taking it day by day and finding joy in the time we have him and feeling thankful for Cort.

Nov 14, 2007

Cohen Christopher McGowan

That is our 2nd son's name. We would love it if you could all begin to pray for him by name.

We are struggling through each day but God has been faithful and is carrying us through to each next one. I have so much to write about - so many thoughts - that I am not sure where to begin or that I feel like it right now. We will be meeting with our "support counselor" from the hospital tomorrow and then with my OB and the specialist again on Friday.

I am struggling with the best way to keep everyone updated. I have so much to share about Cort and Cohen but it seems weird to get started and almost stranger to write about one and not the other. Might do a separate blog for Cohen. Haven't decided yet.

Chris and I want to thank everyone for the unbelievable love, words, and care that has been extended to us. We have been overwhelmed by the outpouring of love and rallying of our friends and family. Your prayers, tears, hugs, silence, and words mean more to us then you could ever know. Thank you for loving us and for already loving Cohen.

I'll write more later.

Nov 8, 2007

Dependence

We had our 20 week ultrasound yesterday. It's a boy!! It was a long day.

Our baby has been diagnosed with probable Thanatophoric Dysplasia. This is a skeletal disorder marked by short arms and legs as well as small ribs and chest. Unfortunately, the small ribs and chest create an issue for proper lung development. As long as our little guy is inside my body he is fine. However, when he is born he will not be able to breath on his own. Survival is very rare and comes with very severe medical issues. There should be no pregnancy issues so I should carry him full term. They cannot confirm the diagnosis without more testing. We are unsure of our plan of action right now.

We are at a loss of words and even unsure of our thoughts at the moment. I will write more later about details and our thoughts. I guess right now we just ask that you pray for us, Cort, and our son. Specifically, you can pray for the following:

1) That God would preform a miracle and heal our son. This is our heart's desire.

2) If God chooses not to heal him, pray that I will get to hold him alive when he is born. I know it will be hard but I want to hold him breathing. I feel him move in me now and know he is alive and I want to see him and remember him that way.

3) Pray for us as we figure out how to respond and handle these next 4.5 months. We know that all things are for God's glory and long to see that in this. Pray that our hearts can follow what our head knows. We want to respond over these next months truthfully but in a way that glorifies our God. We do not know what this will look like.

4) Pray for continued dependence on God. We have no strength on our own to deal with this. Pray that we would cling to Him in this time.

5) Praise God for Cort and the current life of our new son. We want to rejoice in God's blessings. Pray that we can maintain some normalcy for Cort and enjoy this special time in his life right now. Praise God for everyday that our new son lives.